love the seventeenth

I apologise for whatever that's been happening. Everytime I try and recall the last time I updated this blog, the brief account just turns into a fleeting figment (sorta) of my memory... It's not actually something I know how to describe, but to put it simply, it's faded into the depths of my mind that the significance is just diminished.

The past few days have been "eventful" but a vast portion of those events have faded into said depths of insignificance in my mind (like mentioned above). To make things a little clearer (pardon the irony), time has passed in somewhat a blur. I've been living for something that shouldn't even be a part of me, but I cannot help it. I hate being neither here nor there, I hate having to choose between:
1 solid ground with almost vast nothingness
2 thin ice not knowing what's underneath, but just across the sheet of ice is where I really feel I belong...

And all this while I've just been waiting for the proper shoes to cross the ice because I just don't want to, or cannot venture out into the nothingness.

There are so many things I cannot wait for, but then again I don't want the new year to come. I hate how things have to accelerate so much in such a short amount of time, but we are all held and controlled by this. We lose ourselves so often in the expectations of others, it is wearying.

I take comfort in the fact that I can seek solace by indulging myself with movies and books and the DICTIONARY! Girl next door, College Road Trip, Bring it on- In it to win it, Daddy Day Camp- have been my life and soul since holidays started. Sounds mono aye.

Lets just move on to my daily rants.

17 dec 2008. Okay. I had super loads of fun (technically yesterday!) Nelson cracked up my morning with the CD(civil defence) boys for two consecutive days. Uncle Nelson misses Nin yeah? hahaha! Mr Hasrin took me today. Cleared everything. Im left with two more session and he claimed that's insufficient. I guess he would have nagged at me till sunrise the next day IF I were to tell him I actually cancelled 2 lessons this week. hohoh! Headed school. Then meet up with the babies, Aslam and Hanna. It was his idea. It felt awkward at the same time honoured? Celebrated their 1st month together with them. Chilled at MacDs MS where Rahamad (if I got the name right) joined us. I got myself Caramel frappe after sooo long. Anyway, easy going people aye?


Aslam and Hanna went home. I headed Eunos and it was my evening with Mr Cairnhill. First destination to PP to developed his photos. Then to ECP food centre for dinner. OMG. I jay-walked like a thousand times today can? Thanks to him. tsk. Simple sweet evening yah. Thanks for the ice cream and the dinner =)

Ps: oh oh. HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY ABANG DY! :D

Start of band camp tmrow. Apart from meeting the G-girls (which is probably the main highlight), everybody else seems to be out of town. Anyway, hopefully it'll be a good session tonight.

It's 2.45am now. shyttttt. Toodles!

Lots of love, Nin.