I've been rather emotional lately and it no longer become a "one of those days" like how I normally tell others. I've lost the essence to joke and laugh and I get upset easily. I even miss people (out of the ordinary) often. I've been reading and I hate it how I allow the stories to blend in my weak lines and start being pessimistic about stuffs. I hate it how I get very sensitive about little issues these days. I hate it how I no longer have desire to indulge with bananas when that normally ease my discontentment.
I have been doing alot of thinking lately and procrastination followed close behind those thoughts. I can even stay online the whole day or watch DVDs after DVDs.
I'm done with watching FULL HOUSE (Korean Drama Series). all the six DVDs which is equivalent to 18hours. yep. That's how much I have been wasted for the past three days. and why the sudden indulgence of Korean dramas? Because I have a ptbf who has korean blood. Easier said, he influenced me to. (Fidah, don't jealous ;)
Saturday band practice was alright. The Takarajima trumpet and trombone thingy almost got me killed (not literally though). I really have to do something with my high notes. I cant seem to pitch "G" properly. What more "As" and "Bs" for Sesame Street in the later piece? pfft. and I was thinking of taking the Soran Bushi solo part. Many opportunities were given to me before this but I didnt really seize it. but I just thought I should now. We'll see about that. Afterwhich, headed IMM with the usuals. Breakfast at LJS. Along the way, I thought I figured something with the boys. One word: dissapointing. As much as I want to be childish and blog it out, I dont think I will. On the flip side, I love the company still. The jokes like trying to matchmake me with ogy. tsk. that so wont happen. boo ya! I'm still going to get married by 25 okay? huhu. I will probably have 10000 more lines to talk about the yesterdays but I guess I'll just drop them off in the OD for archiving purposes.
Busy days ahead. Test routes start tmrow (before final evaluation for M2) and finals are in this week- to be precise, it's on Friday. In lieu of that, random meetings and Iftar sessions lining up. Whatever it is, one thing for sure, I want this week to end, with a smile on my face, feeling all groovy and happy-
like a brush that can dance all around the paper and paint a beautiful picture.
Maybe in this case, im not being an optimist. but I am not going to waste it either. You'll get my drift if you know me well (:
Lots of love, Nin.
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