It can probably be ethically right to ask to choose between a girlfriend and a best friend.
(I mean it is still arguable, and the aftermath can really be shitty...)
BUT asking to choose between a best friend and dad,
the answer is pretty obvious isnt it?

and it's because i know how it feels. i know how it feels like not to be able to do such things with dad. my own daddy. he's been pretty sick lately. still at the hospital. The least i could do was pray for him to get well :'(

that being said, i dont want others to loose that opportunity of bonding. family bonding. those people who actually see you grow and given their everything.

- woke up at 7 despite the OFF day.
- rushing to get the tics and back fetching ziq and sis from school, thus missing Swensens with the girls.
- phuket might just get cancelled to accommodate some others. will have to source for somewhere cheaper i guess :/
- sis had temperature, so i had to babysit her the whole day, i rejected Hannah's dinner offer. and I can't visit Daddy in the hosp :(
- finally giving up the tics, for a dad and son to bond. although im dying to watch it.

but really. it's okay.
atleast the tics didnt go to waste.
He kinda offer me another deal anyway, and hopefully we can really really talk the next time round. although i think we both know we'll be unsure on how to begin. ha ha.

Okay I dont know why im typing this whole chunk here instead of anywhere else and I dont know why tears are flowing. This whole damn week has been about pleasing everyone else but not myself. It's like a mega news outbreak too. information overload. too much. just. too. much.

I guess I need a therapeutic run right now.

I'll see all of you soon?