Real.

Have you ever thought if we could have everything in life, what kind of life would we live? We so often complain that we do not receive what we want, or worst do not receive what we fight so hard for but is it really true? Because after putting much thought into this, I think there's enough truth in it for me to say that it's in every human's nature to so easily forget the daily treasures and gifts that we are given and to be so easily reminded about the mishaps and unfortunates instead.

and if so, why? Why do we always neglect the good? Is it cause we are greedy? or we feel we deserve better then what we are given? Would we really be happy if we got everything we wanted? or would we all just be more spoilt and unappreciative to what we have now?

I watched Idol Gives Back. They were in Angola and Ethiopia and (I cant remember where else). It is just so sad that the people there are in this mess they call life. Its terrible. Which begs the question, "Why do they deserve this?"... all those endless sufferings. I guess suffering is different for everybody. But too much suffering should just be eliminated. As what dear said earlier on, the only way to solve the problem is to kill all of them, leaving just a handful, and start again. But that is just not possible.

So i'm back up and awake at the oddest hour. This gay insomnia of my for the past few days has really started to get me really frustrated, not to mention those random headaches that keeps occuring. I always come home feeling completely energetic especially after my shower to end up totally dead tired and before I know it knocked out cold on my bed. and the tiredness I feel, it just never seems to enough to keep me asleep through the night. sleep just never seems enough. in fact it feels a little tiring mentally cause I find myself battling to find this something, I'm missing. I know for a fact that theres something that is amidst when I lie my head there at night. It's ridiculous. I would do anything for a good night's rest. it's an odd night. and the ambience is cold.

It's Friday already and I've got work later on. Probably will have to rush or cab down to meet the girls thereafter, unless someone wants to fetch me from my workplace? heh. Alright, I better turn in now. It's gonna be a long and fully occupied day(s) ahead- all the way till Saturday.

Im off. Please take care sweethearts. Talk soon.

Love, N.