Drafted this. Blogger's being a bitch still.

Past two weeks of school have been absolutely crazy. But alhamdulillah, I'm coping well. I nailed the assessment, I wow-ed upon my own assignments and I even made it to the top few who got selected for the final FYP presentation to the school’s management. I am thankful for that. Really. Anyway, ranting about school isn’t the purpose why I logged on to blogger today. The reason(s) why I decided to log on is to talk about waffles.

I love waffles.

I remember reading somewhere that men are equated with waffles. At first, I thought of it as an absurd equation, but as time goes by, I've begin to pick up the essential reasons behind the statement. Like how waffles are made of tiny squares with a wall of separation in between each squares. And that somehow reflect exactly on how they think. In squares and boxes. Issues in each of the squares are very individualistic. They cater to each square as it is. Just like how they can play soccer and soccer would mean everything at that very moment. Unlike us, we often relate anything to everything. That's why we're complex and hard to understand. To an extent that sometimes, we find it hard to understand ourselves. That's happening to me. I can't seem to understand how I'm feeling right now. Well, someone told me before, feelings can be a foe whenever comes to decision making part. What more if it's 50-50.

I wonder sometimes, if the joy of the present can ever totally erase the actions of the past. I suppose what matter is here and now, ya? But sometimes, I just can't help but wonder... wonder.

I just can't seem to truly convince myself of the reality of the present, with the burden of bygones lurking in the shadows of my vision's edge. Perhaps it's just me who has yet to come to terms with getting over what is happening/has happened and moving on and along.

As the week passes by, a new reality begins to dawn. The chapter that is soon fast approaching begins it's steady march. I feel unprepared. Not ready to deal with the many technicalities that will come my way. I just pray that when things come I might know how to deal with them. One thing at a time.

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And so it already begins.

I wonder sometimes, and I shall try not to waste the rest of my time doing so.

_says:

sometimes nth more you can do and just being patience. thats the best.. shud i say ..always?
swallow all these nonsensical stuff that might come your way. it's the reality eventually.
its like the situation goes this way, what we meant today does not mean what we mean tmr. You know what i'm saying?

Nin says:

yeah
We live by the day. Each and everyday it's different.

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Anyways, 5 things I ought to do -

Pick up a good book and read. I haven't been touching books ever since I fell in love and fall out of love, I haven't read any. That's almost a year for now. Books are one of the best way to keep myself occupied, and tone down all the thinking process which leads to stressing up. I'm good at avoiding reality. Hehs. Next, I must curb the spendings. I know retail therapy is love and is the most orgasmic therapy for girls, but it's not love when you're broke and you'll end up thinking on how to spend the remainings when it's barely enough for your daily expenses. Tsk~ Third, I must get a new wallet. This is essential. (I know it is a contradiction to the previous point, but I really need it. So Khai, when shopping eh? My next pay is sometime end of this mth. haha!) Forth, stop playing games and trying to hit my own high score cause games are very addictive and pretty much a waste of time when you're addicted to it! Fifth, fall out from the procrastination and start full force mugging for semestral exam which is exactly a month away? Corrections. My NSL theory is tmrow. Gonna mug my ass off tonight.

Take care sweets.

Love, N.