I will never ever forget 24 August forever.
For as long as lil sister's growing,
celebrating her birthday in the many years to come,
that date shall remain true.
I wonder if he still remembers that pink bugs bunny diary of mine?
hmmmmm...
it all started from there.
It was written in ink, back and white. over 4 pages.
The day he ended he life chapter with someone and all the disputes with his previous "family".
It was really a hard time, for him and for them.
Anyway, that day when he asked me to be his god sis,
I was more than just happy and excited.
I was overjoyed!
With no doubts, I accepted it.
and up till today, I have NO regrets :)
4 years passed.
We've been through more than a dozen of stuffs.
Ranging different kind of emotions.
from the extreme positive to the extreme negative.
You name it.
Happy. Sad times.
I've seen him smile, seen him laugh.
I've seen him blast off.
I've heard him cry.
I've heard him talking on the phone while sleeping! (lol)
I've caused alot of pain.
I've been treated back with loads of beeps too (hehs)
etc etc.
I've always been happy and proud for all the joyful-proud moments of his lifetime.
I still remember him telling me in his excited tone, how happy he way getting the invitation to play with PhilYouth. Just look where he stands now. He's already an official member of PhilHarmonic Youth Winds.
That's just one example that I quoted. There are more.
We talked about school.
We talked about our ambitions.
We talked about the future.
Coincedence happen.
and we cannot explain them.
Loads of them.
Tell me how do you explain the exact same foolscap and pen we just bought?
and it was the exact SAMEcolour!
(magnifying a minor? pure coincedence?)
This is not the first time that coincedence happen. and you know it.
it's just pretty weird.
Maybe it's the heart to heart connection.
Shopping with him was never a bore. never a chore.
Especially when it's a trip to the supermarket.
We can spent more than an hour in there.
Him browsing through every single shelf.
fun oh fun :D
Not forgetting our long bus rides.
haha!
Random places we will go to.
and...
Along the way, we pick up the younger ones,
and slowly we built up something that we exsistently call-theSe7ens.
Indeed tough to handle them.
The trust was absolutely demanding.
The responsibility for every action was so much.
It was those kids and the memories w had together that kept us going.
A year review.
This year have been real tough.
We had our first biggest "war" that happen not long time ago over a period of time.
It was rather hell-ish for me to face and overcome the consequences.
From March till July, it's been hanging, here and there.
Thousands of uncertainties.
And apparently, trust depletes.
Well, it's just hard to describe and put it in words.
Awkward-tense moments are just so hard to explain.
but im sure you knew and felt it too.
Tiff periods and fights.
Minor and major arguments.
You name it.
Come August.
We began to pick up bits and pieces from where we left them.
Eliminating hardcore negative emotions. it was tough.
Despite that, some things are still not right(now).
But InsyAllah it'll get better in time.
All these years and months, I know and I learned that:
People are jealous of me.
People envy me because they see me close to you.
(some even ask, what it takes to be you god sis/bro)
People dont understand whats in this RS I had with you.
Well, nothing more than just a bro-sis RS of course. (dont get me wrong)
People dont understand how I could tolerate his beeps.
People dont understand why I can hang on for what seems like forever to them.
People are scared of him.
People look up to me (indirectly) because I dare take the risk.
( I'm not trying to brag. Just stating the fact)
Like i've said. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. It's human nature to judge and assume what they see first hand without investigating much further. With that, I shall not elaborate further on the above paragraph :)
I'm just PROUD to have a brother name Khairul Anwar.
Just remember, even when we go on seperate ways one day,
just flip though your 19th birthday gift on the page of Family of Se7ens,
and memories will flood your mind and heart.
So much for the technology and blogs that were created to capture memories,
Hardcopy is still sooo much easier and the BEST!.
(you dont need to browse through so many ARCHIVES you know. hehs.)
Im lost for words already.
There's just too much for me to say.
What I want to say it's more than what words can express.
truly.
Nonetheless, I would want a million more months. Amin.
Thank you for everything.
Love you many many brother!
You have defintiely earn a place in both my heart and soul (:
Lots of Love, Nin.
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