Shoot. It's Wednesday tmrow. Not going to be an ordinary Wednesday I guess. I hate feeling like this. I don't really know what's there to freak out about, but I am. I'm freaking out big time. Okay, let's just hope this is caused by being excessively paranoid. Grrrr ): nvm. Let's not fret :))

Day two, morning shift, Gynaecology Ward. It feels like the clock ticks faster today as compared to yesterday. I did alot of admissions this morning and later in the day, encountered something I've been anticipating for, since beginning of the week. In the process, the feelings got pretty dysfunctional though. No, I'm not being emotional. You'll understand if you feel me.

First ABORTION case. I witnessed and had my hands on an aborted fetus this afternoon before I end off duty. It was fresh. It was bloody. I swear my heart sank seeing the fetus lying there. It's a "he" fetus. The mummy's a 20 week-er(approximately 5 months pregnant when she decided to abort it). Thus, most of his features were already well developed and complete. Hands, ears, mouth, nose...everything.... He could have lived, born alive and see the world. but No. His life got terminated at 20weeks old. sad sad thing. It's even more depressing knowing the mummy's age and the reason why she aborted it. Well, life goes on for her.

Apart from abortion, of course there are many other interesting cases where complication of the fetus arises. In this kind of cases, fetus needs to be removed to avoid future complications and also to save the mother's life. For example, the fetus heart stops beating. After going through torough scans and tests, one will then be adviced to terminate the pregnancy because the fetus would not be able to survive(in any case). That leaves the couple with no other choice but to agree to go for the operation(refering to the wife) to induced the fetus out. and I must say, this is the first ever ward I SEE MEN cry. Tears literally flow down their cheeks. I've seen three in just two days alone. Nonetheless, they never fail to amuse me, for, they are still there, by the bedside, holding hands, staying strong for, their wife.

Desire to have kids after years of marriage, trying so hard, finally wife gets pregnant and the above happens.
Can you imagine their sorrows?

I wont say I can. because I really can't. I havent been through that. Never will I want to ( if I ever get pregnant one day, that is) I would love to have many many lovable kids! :)
Okay folks! That's all for today's update. Hope to encounter more interesting cases in the upcoming days.

Joy to the world!

Take care all.