It's Saturday morning. couldnt sleep well last night and I've been up so early. Couldnt bring myself to finish up the incomplete board album. been facing it for 3 long hours now. Sigh... and sister just told me something. it didnt matter if it was true or not, but I fuckingly broke down. it's been awhile since that happen. all these while numbness was all i felt, but now, this minute and this second, i feel it piercing through. so deep inside.

At times, you lose what you need most. At times, you're never satisfied with what you have. And at times, you hope which would at times, turn out to be the biggest disappointment. At times, you keep finding, searching, and never find. And when you actually did, you let it disappear again.

All these times, I do miss you. I do miss going to random places with you. I do miss our late night sessions. I do miss all the stupid funny sms we send to each other.

Sometimes, I do regret loving you and knowing you.
Cause that was the time when I found what I've been looking for, and that was the time when my hopes were at the highest point and that was also the time when it turned out to be the biggest disappointment.

That was just for that instance. But I need you to know, after all that we've been through, it's still you that I love and cared so much for.

To the rest, Idham, Finah, Nad, Eddy, Aslam, yes, plans were made. But I'm sorry it just cant happen the way we want it to be. About making it up, im not too sure now. Thank you for all the thoughts and efforts put in for the past few days. Just hold it deep down in our hearts, and remember, that everything we did is for someone we truly love and cared for so much.

Not forgetting, to the Kesian Boyz, the idea was there but it's entirely up to you guys now. Thanks for everything too.



And after all thats been said and done
You're just the part of me
I can't let go...

:'(