matter of time

The world can be so ironic. Have you ever found yourself at certain moments in your life where you feel there is a need to be absolutely direct; other times you choose to shun away from being direct. I found my answer somewhere in between. I hate to admit, but my instincts and thoughts were true somehow. I want to stop thinking for one day. Thinking kills people. (or their brains for that matter of fact) If you think about it, you start thinking the moment you wake up. Which leg to step down from your bed first? What clothes to wear? What to have for breakfast. I wish i had a robot to help me scan my previous/past thoughts and help me decide. I want to be puppetted around for a day. I don't mind a week.


Sleep now?

I think it's safe to say the boat has sailed. Whatever chance of me forgiving the situation has spirited away, and now all that's left is the grease on the frying pan and undercooked chicken. What a douchebag. Now I know what to expect. I forgive many things, but seriously, this is the final straw. I believe I told a confidante earlier in the month that these situations just deserve a very big "GO SUCK IT!" I just can't believe such people exist, but I should know better than that. And I can do better than that; I deserve better.

Just go suck it. :)

I’m being asphyxiated by your fabrication and umpteen little white lies. It’s time for a gulp of air & kick myself to surface. That’s the only way to save myself.

that. shall serve as a good reminder. and honestly, im not too sure how exactly im gonna say it right to your face (in bold and CAPS). Have'nt quite figure where to get my guts from either. meanwhile, i shall just grab a bag of popcorns and watch the show. have you gotten your tickets too?