that little thought/idea/image that just ran through your head

I bet it’s a nice one. or a funny one. one that’s insightful, or even breathtakingly beautiful.
never let those tender little thoughts escape you. say them. sing them. paint them. dance them.
collect them if you want, and when you feel like you’re ready, share them. please. I guarantee that someone somewhere will be glad you did.

0103 hours; I just got back and thank you, you for the short drive out!

You know I've always love it! (:

No work later. yeays. BUT i need to camp somewhere to skeleton out FHC project.

Damn screwed.

Goodnight sayangs!

the second

Okay. Because I'm just lazy to switch on my lappy and I need this to be down exactly about now, my thoughts and feelings. Im typing from this mini screen of my iPhone. 4 years is just pretty long baby. I'm quite speechless at the moment.

But just to let you know, every minute and second spent with you is appreciated.

It just sets me thinking, what does all these mean to you.

From where I was probably earlier this year, to where I am now, right here, with you.

What would it be now if you have chosen the latter?

Hmm...

N.

congrats sweetheart (:

Alhamdulillah. It was a good start to the month of July. I had post night off and the souljaboy took me out for dinner, well...lets not say according to plan... but i still had a lovely evening. After he made me wait for hours, he wont let me pay a cent thorugh the evening :) I had fun visiting random places giving out NDP preview tix -.- sounds retarded, but fun. like a cheap thrill. like a cheap thrill.

Bumped into Han and Liza on the train, then a few of his random friends, (although nothing official) getting introduced sent butterflies down my stomach, i have no idea why. Bumped into Haiqal and Abang Is too. Abang Is well wishes gave me some sense of comfort.

After a hearty-over-loaded meal, walked around and he got himself a pair slippers and i finally got my crocs. MY crocs but HIS choice.

In summary, that evening made up for the shitty night i had hours before.

So much love;
N.

Sweet perfection!

Okay. Here's my attempt to start blogging. errrrm...constantly that is. Hah.

So last Monday, (after my post night sleeping day off), the big boss arranged for some high end makan session over at Antoinette. Went to browse through the web and the macaroons seem like a to-die-for. So, there we are on a sugar rush mission!

While waiting for Nana, Shirhan, Rose and JL, we ordered some pastries. The almond pastry is awesome! and of course I decided to settle for its Royale Hot Chocolate. The bitterness of the chocolate stayed at the tip of my tongue even when it has gone down the throat. TOTALLY LOVE IT.

Antoinette Royale Hot Chocolate: $6.90

 

That's me and YJ (who ust got back from Japan the day before) while waiting for the rest!

Happy us with the Almond awesomeness!

Yup. That's my take on the French Toast menu. 

French toast with caramelized banana; $11.90
All toast are served with creme Chantilly.

Tasty sweet caramel sauce is definitely positive because the sauce was so good and I couldn't stop eating it :/ If you try their maple syrup and love it, you would also love this! Or if you want a crazy epic meal, you could order both the maple syrup and this! I'm sure you and your dining partner-in-crime will not regret this choice! It's so good you'll probably be debating as to which choice toast is better (:

They finally arrived and ordered. (I'm not going detail there cause it'll be too long)
We settle for desserts soon after!

Chocolicieux; $7.90

Warm chocolate sauce, dark chocolate 66% ice cream, chocoalte pieces and vanilla creme Chantilly.
This is definitely Choco MADNESS! double thumbs up baby!

You name it. We got it! hehee. Anyway, we were there for this/ Tried each and every of A's macaroon!
It was pure orgasm! Perfection to sweetness and definitely love at first bite!
I would definitely head back and have a dozen to go the next time round Im in town!

Assorted Macaroon: $2.00 each

Sugar rush mission accomplished.

Overall, I would say, it's really a good high class place to chill. with Paris-eeesh feeling like ambience. European, Western, French cuisine. High end dining when you got the moneh to splurge. The misc photos are over at my FB. If it doesnt satisfy or convince you enough, do drop by at Antoinette and try it yourself (; I beleive there's a few Antoinette's in Singapore. Remember, the Macroons are to die for!

Antoinette is located at

  333A Orchard Road, #02-33/34
Mandarin Gallery, Singapore 

Tel: +65 6836 9527

 Opening Hours 

Daily: 11am – 10pm

uphill battle

It's hard to trust someone the second time around after they already gave you one reason not to trust them.
When we decide to trust someone after they were dishonest or disloyal to us the first time around, we are choosing to put our heart into someone's hands with whom we know is capable of hurting us again. With this being said, knowing that they may be able to hurt you again is not what should be focused on. Instead after a thorough reconciliation and grieving period we have to be willing to get past the past in order to grow the relationship.

Entering into a relationship with someone who has already hurt you may be harder for some, and easier for some, depending upon their tolerance for pain, and how forgiving of a heart they have, but make no mistake about it, it will definitely be an uphill battle. Just remember that your heart is special, and if someone wants to be in your life after hurting you once before then they need to earn this spot back into your life.

After all these, I still wonder what if the coin has flipped the other way round.

It could have been me.

Life blows

It was hard. I suffered silently. Apart from my other relatives, I know I didnt really tell anyone that both mummy and daddy got admitted since the week began. well except for Hamsin who had the instincts that i wasnt okay and accompanied me through the night at A&E and hear me cry my hearts out that night. Nana and YJ knew cause I cant possibly run away from them at work, and of course we've been seeing each other often for them to pick up i wasnt okay. and lastly, Khai, who knew and asked. I didnt want anyone to feel pity for me and my siblings in anyway. I believe I could handle it. Alhamdulillah I did it. As strong as i appeared to be, there was still a breaking point.

Mummy and Daddy both got discharged yesterday already. Alhamdulillah. Thank you all for the well wishes and prayers.

Im also thankful that part of the KBBG were there through some of my hard nights although they didnt have any clue. and of course i had something else to distract me from all those shitty thoughts. I'm glad i was there for someone who needed me to be there. you know who you are and if you're reading this, please dont feel bad. Lets shine alright.

Im so much better now but there's still one major outstanding issue to worry about.

Time's like a ticking bomb. :/

My laptop's batt is dying. Im off to work now. Take care lovelies!

density

The thing about life is that.. It goes beyond just love, friends and family. It goes beyond the perfect career, money, and even sex. All of us, we know this. We know this fact by heart but sometimes, we forget. And when we forget, there's just no one around to shake us and make us realise that we've derailed from what actually really matters, because everyone around us too, have forgotten.

Like me. I forget most of the time. But I'm begging for someone who would tell me to fucking wake up when I do forget. Where IS this person? 

the latter

hey its me again. been tight for the past weeks almost drove me insane. ended off with night shifts which caused me and drove me to beyond exhaustion. took more than 24 hours to replenish. having my long long offs now till thurs.

had lunch over at swensens this afternoon with the girls. received a text just when we settled our orders. remember X? yup. it was him after so long. at some point of time i really wanted to cry over my scrumtious meal. but I thank god the girls were there just talking and talking non stop bout some other things that kinda stopped the tears from flowing. well, prior to matter at hand. im not too sure if this was suppose to be a closure. but truthfully im relieved. thanks for being a gentleman. and  really appreciate that we talked about it. it made my heart sank. and i dont know why i felt the sudden pain too. i really do. ive seen the past. now it's like a repetition. i dont even know if i should feel sorry for myself. i guess i still like you alot.

it will take me sometime to digest this whole situation. but like what i told him, im here if he needs me.

really breaks my heart.

i wish i could do something. i wanna be in your arms again :(

happy hour after midnight (:

Singing our hearts out at the backseat. Night like this when we talk about rounding Europe. what more can I say? Loving it! May come fast please! ((:

in loving memory...

I think life should be about touching the lives of people around us. Making a difference. Accepting people for who they are, going out of our way to help others, and loving with all that we’ve got. Sometimes all it takes is one simple gesture, and we can put a smile on someone’s face and make them feel less alone. That is what we should live for, because when we’re gone from this world, we can’t take anything with us. All that’s left are the people whose lives you touched, and the difference you’ve made while you were here. So make this life count, because you don’t get a second chance.

My late uncle was a strong, brave and loving man. He was only forty-seven.

Sunday, 22nd January 2012 1512h
He left his beloved wife, his three adorable (still so young) kids behind, his elder daughter, and seven other living siblings- with lotsa love and memories, to meet God. Everything happened too fast, and yes, there was no second chance.

Please make do`a for him. thanks.
Al-Fatiha.

view; from bay east

 the other night, after our ice cream treat from Venezia, dropped by Bay East. It was nice and breezy.

FINALLY!

Wohooooo! can't wait!!! :D

But first, I've gotta clear my night shift for this roster. One more night to go before happening weekends!

Ciao!

Titanic;

3rd of Jan; with my favourite girls and here's to our artsy farty trip.

Apparently, we were not allowed to take photos inside the exhibition. thus, the lack of photos. Managed to sneak snap photos from the iphone though. Anyway, I kinda like the last photo. was a quick shot. cause apparently we were rushing off to meet the others and free supper from the doctor. It was a nice evening and a good kick start to 2012 definitely.

strike the vein!

That satisfying moment when you get to see the backflow. and i was forced by YJ to use a freaking needle instead of the usual "butterfly". success! Hahaha... it was basically slacking day at work. go round setting plug and blood sucking. Sing songs with my ah-mas and dance the hours away. it's true when they say, nothing else matters when you know you are the reason why people smile. it just feels good both inside and out. :)

Had supper with the guys and tang tea. It is indeed true that vanue does not matter as long as you have right company. As you grow older, I realize it is increasingly harder to find time and energy to meet up with people you really do care about but I am glad that most of my friendships can endure the test of time. Alhamdulillah.

Okay. Apparently im PBG-ing right now. my attempt to blog often seems to be progressing quite well. Haha. Oh. I need to head to town later and im gonna drag someone along with me.

I feel like having ice cream now. random. but true. wanted to just now but was still feeling full. okay that kinda rhyme.

Lets try doodle on something else now shall we? I feel like posting random pictures. okay bye.

Love, N.